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This is me on 1/5/00 at 370 pounds & gaining.


And this is me now. :) (180)

I have never been like everyone else. For a lot of kids being fat is something they never have to think about. Something they never have to worry about, and lucky them. But for me, that was VERY different. I thought about it every day of my life, what I ate and didn't eat since I was 10 years old. I started gaining weight rapidly. I ate less then everyone around me but I was the one gaining weight on a daily basis and getting bigger. I had people telling me to eat less and exercise more. Eat less when I was eating less then all the other kids already?

I'm surprised I didn't end up with a eating disorder too. As the years went by the weight went up and up. When I graduated from school I was already 270 and a year later when I married my hubby I was up to 310. Can you imagine being that big? Try picking up a 50 pound bag of dog food and walk around for a hour. See how tired you get from just 50 more pounds. Of course with my weight going up so quick, my health went downhill. I was going to the Dr every week for things. I couldn't paint my toes nails much less even see my toes. I would get out of breath walking from the car which was parked in the closing parking spot to the Store entrance. My ankles were so swollen they looked like balloons. My Dr finally discovered that I had low thyroid. Started me on meds which helped me not gain weight so fast but about nothing else....

After my hubby graduated we moved to San Diego for his job. Imagine being 350 pounds now and living in a city where everyone is obsessed with looks. I'd go out in public and hear comments n snickers n laughing. After a while I couldn't take it and would only leave my home when absolutely needed. I was a prisoner in my own home. Now I just moved to CA so of course I was extremely homesick as ALL of my family lived in AZ and they were my support. My hubby was busy with his new job n well not very interested in me anymore, n who can blame him? I had such bad sleep apnea that I would stop breathing 113 times in 1 hour. I was dying and I was invisible to everyone. This is were the thought of killing myself came in. I could no longer handle being so big that I was not really living at all. Well, one day I was online and just happened upon a website that saved my life in every way possible. WLS. Weight Loss Surgery. And NO, It's not a "EASY WAY OUT". It was either WLS or die a slow death. What would you choose? I choose WLS. I choose life. I'd either die on the table or come out in a better situation. Not much really to lose. I went into surgery weighing 371 or more.

Well It worked. One and half years later and ALOT of exercise, I was 205 pounds lighter. I weighed 165 and I was happy and healthy and most important I was living life again. All my medical problems were gone. WLS saved me. Saved my life and made my kids possible! Yup, 2 years later I had my first child and 4 years later my second. I gained some baby weight and I was at 218 before starting my exercise and diet routine. WLS was just a tool for me and that's all. It gave me the chance to have a normal life. It doesn't mean that I won't gain weight back, I know, because well I did. I gained a total of 50 pounds between my two kids. But my kids are worth it and so I am. So here I am again WORKING to get weight off. Weight loss is not easy for me. It never will be. I was always have to work harder then everyone else around me with normal thyroids. But I'm ok with that. If I didn't go through everything that I have gone though then I wouldn't be me and I wouldn't have my kids who are my life. They are a big part of why I am trying to lose weight again, So I can around longer for them.

My Current stats & Goals -
SW - 218.9
CW - 193.4
GW1 - 199
GW2 - 189
GW3 - 179
GW4 - 165
GW5 - 150

I feel 160/150 is a good weight for me, even with me being 5'3 since I have large heavy bones from being so overweight at a young age. I was 165 before getting preggo n a size 12. I felt VERY comfortable at that weight. I'm doing pretty well with my eating and exercise, now it's just time for the hard part - sticking to it!

If you have any comments or questions about my story, feel free to contact me. :)

jamie@jamies-designs.com









































Saturday, December 30, 2006

Long Update

So I guess I need to post a major update! :) It's been quite a while since I posted. We left on Friday the 22nd to AZ so I guess that would be the place to start! :) Just a warning though this is going to be a LONG post.

Friday 22nd - We packed the car that morning and then hopped in the car and went and got the girls from school. Grabbed lunch for them and then headed to AZ. It was a rainy day but luckily we didn't get much rain. Thank goodness because traffic and rain combined makes Jamie very nervous from her car accident in April. Anyways, we ended up getting to AZ around 7pm. Ate dinner, hung out and then got the girls to bed. My sister Joy stayed and helped us. We hung out and got to talk. It was great.

Saturday 23rd - Saturday was a good day. We spent all day Hanging out with my Sister's kids while she was at work. After she got off of work we all(gma/gpa/my kids/hubby n i/my sis/my bro/etc) went to see the movie Happy Feet. My hubby and all the kids loved but I honestly never want to watch it again. It wasn't very good. After we grabbed food and headed to my mom's house and ate and hung out until it was time for the kids bedtime. After we got them settled down in bed we got to work helping Santa. Barney and I headed over to my sisters place to watch a movie and help her with Christmas stuffies. We got to talk and hang out more. I really enjoyed it and realized how much I miss having my family near me.

Sunday 24th - Christmas Eve! We spent all day watching my sister's kids while she was at work. We helped them do Christmas crafts and get into the Christmas sprit. My oldest nephew Dennis LOVED making the cards for people. It was so cute. He must have made his mom about 5 cards. He also was a good helper, gotta love 8 yr olds. :) Afterwards we hung out and played and did more crafts while Joy, Mom, and Dad went were getting dinner ready. Once it was ready we all ate. (All 18 of us) Afterwards we sang Christmas songs and read Christmas Stories. And then the part that the kids love best, We open presents from each other. My kids got a ton of stuff. Too much but they had a blast opening it all and being with family. A few thing I got is Godiva Chocolate(drool), Photoshop Elements 5 & Photoshop Elements Premiere 3, turquoise necklace, 2 rings, a book about angels, an angel bookmark, shirt, and some earrings. After we were done we hung out and talked. It was a great day. Once everyone left the girls, Daddy, and I left out cookies for Santa and jumped into bed.

Monday 25th - Christmas Day! The girls slept in until 7 or so until Novalee decided to crawl into bed with mommy. :) We sat in bed playing and tickling each other until Trinity woke up. I asked her "Do you think Santa came?". She smiled the smile that melts my heart and screamed "YES!" lol That woke Daddy up. So we all head out to see what Santa left. The girls were amazed by their stocking and all the presents he left them under the tree. We spent the morning opening presents and playing. Later we had to stop and get ready to go to Grandma's Barbara's house for Christmas Supper. We got the girls in their pretty dresses and headed over there. Supper/Lunch was yummy and we spent the day opening more presents and playing. I got $50 from my MIL since she never knows what to get me and Barney did too. The girls got LOTS of stuff and also got $25. All in all we had an amazing Christmas. I'm grateful that I have so many people who care about about me and my family.

Tuesday 26th - While Barney and the girls headed back to Grandma Barbara's house I had to go shopping for a Bridesmaid dress with my sisters and Mom. It seemed to take forever to find a dress that Julie said ok to. I finally agreed upon a dress that I didn't really like so I could leave the mall. lol It's silver and sparkly and it would be pretty on most women. I think it looks icky on me though. It shows to much cleavage and I think I'm going to feel very uncomfortable in it. They are going to have a jacket made to go with it but still I'm going to be around family and a bunch of Mormons. Eeeeeek. N showing all that cleavage is going to make me feel weird and uncomfortable but I'll do it for my sister since that is the dress she likes. After that we went and saw Julie in her Wedding Dress. She is going to look beautiful....I'm really happy for her but also jealous. She gets to be the beautiful bride I never got to be. My parents also seem to be so proud and happy with her. They are going to paying for a lot at the wedding when they paid for very little at mine. Maybe it's because she is Mormon? Who knows and I'm definitely not going to ask because it can't change what they did in the past. After that Joy and I grabbed Coffee and then got her kids and headed to her place. I got to hang out all evening with her and her kiddos. It was Great. I really got a chance to see them and play with them without my hubby who they love being there to distract them. lol.

Wednesday 27th - Today was a lazy day. We just went over to Gma B's place and hung out and played. It was nice to spend more time with her and Barney's family. I'm pretty lucky when it comes to in-laws, I like all of mine and we all get along. In fact Gma B is one of the major reasons I want to move back to Az. I miss her too. Novalee also had been sick for a few days now. Small cold and a fever that won't seem to go away. If she isn't better soon I'll have to take her to the Doctor. The fever is starting to worry me a lot.

Thursday 28th - Today we Drive home. I hate the drive home. It seems to take forever when you travel with small kids. Although the DVD player we put in the car does help a lot. I just wished we had a bigger car so I could sit in the back with them. It would be ALOT easier to take care of them that way. Once we got home I got everything out of my car. Got the mail and found out that my Scrap bag I ordered came! I wished it was a bit bigger but I still love it. I'm going to try and make some layouts today to put in it and once I do I'll post pictures for you all to see. :)

Friday 29th - Today we got up and went to the Chiro and then headed to Target. We dropped my car off to get a oil change and a car washed and then we walked over to Target to let the girls look around and picked 1 thing out that they could buy with their Christmas money their Gma gave them. Trinity bought her first Brat Doll! ACK! Hide me. lol I've been avoiding buying those. lol. Novalee picked out the movie Any Bully. Afterwards, we went and got my car and headed to Albertsons and got some food n other stuff we needed. It was a nice morning and we got some family time together while doing the errands. During Novalee's nap Trinity and Barney helped me take down Christmas stuff and clean up. Trinity was a GREAT helper and had fun doing it. Novalee slept in late from her nap so I had to go in and wake her. She had a fever again. :( Poor kiddo. I decided to call the doctor. They told me to be there in 10 minutes since it was close to the time they get off work. Well it turned out that Novalee had ear infection. Ouchie. My poor baby. Those are no fun at all. The doctor also saw more fluid behind ears. NOT good. Novalee had tubes put in when she was around 1 because she had thick fluid for months behind her ear drums. The doctor wants to keep a close eye on her ears now. We go back to the doc in 6 weeks for a follow-up. I really hope the fluid clears on it's own. Then he will also check them at her 3 yr old check in March. If the fluid is still there she will more then likely need to have tubes put into her ears again. Ugh. :( Not fun for her or mommy so I really hope it goes away on it's own.

Today - Today has been a lazy day sorta. I'm still cleaning and organizing everything. This morning I went through the drawers and cabinets in my bathroom and threw out ALOT of crap and re-arranged stuff. After I took a long nice hot bath while I read a new book I bought. It's called Peaceful Parents, Peaceful Kids: Practical Ways to Create a Calm and Happy Home. I read the first chapter which is pretty long. I really like this book alot so far. I need to do the exercises in the book later today when I get a moment. Then I went to the store to get coffee and a few things. I also had to call my phone carrier and up my txt messages. I have started using quite a bit since my sister and I have gotten so close. So I had them upped the minutes so I wouldn't get charged up the butt for them. Anyways, I'm off to cuddle with my kiddos and eat some lunch in a bit.



Of course a Christmas Present. :) A Scrap Freebie called Journal It Pack 1




2 bulletin boards
2 pushpins
1 thumb tack
1 Burnt Parchment
12 Notes
2 Index Cards
4 Note Book
2 Notbook Papers
3 Notes With Holders
1 Paper Pad
1 Parchment
1 Polaroid
1 Scroll
1 Card With Envelope

I'm also currently working on Journal It Pack 2. :)

Download Journal-It Pack_Part 1
Download Journal-It Pack_Part 2
Download Journal-It Pack_Part 3
Download Journal-It Pack_Part 4
Download Journal-It Pack_Part 5

FYI: All my scrap freebies links on my blog will be coming down soon and moved to my website. :)



Question Of The Day -

IF you could Have One Last Meal, What would it be?

Hmm. Thats a hard one but if it was really my last and calories didn't count I would prolly have a whole box of Godiva Chocolate. hehe. :) YUM!

Thursday, December 21, 2006

Template Freebie and A Hello

What a extremely busy week. Eeeeek. I try to keep up but it just gets so hard. I have to finish packing for our trip to AZ today. We leave tomo morning. Monday was errand day, after going to the gym I was out and about pretty much all day. Tuesday Novalee was home with me and I found out some bad news. My parents dog has to be put to sleep and my sis-in-law was put into the hospital. Yesterday, I went to the gym, ran errands, and pack some of the girls stuff. Which takes us to today. My head hurts but I gotta try and finish all the packing besides last minute stuff today. I really just wanna go climb in bed and stay there though! lol

I have no new Layouts to share. :( I just haven't had the time to do any. I'm hoping though on the way to AZ that I won't get sick and I'll be able to do a bunch to AZ in the car. Wish me luck. lol

Here is a freebie for today. Scrap Layout Template No. 3 :) I hope someone likes it. Tomo I'm going to try and post a Christmas present for you all. But till then I hope you guys enjoy this.

Download Scrap Layouy Template No. 3



Sunday, December 17, 2006

Good afternoon. :)

Been a good day today for the most part. I woke up too early and didn't fall asleep until late so I got maybe 4 hours of sleep. Blah. Oh well. Once I got up it got better. My girls got up shortly after I did and I got them dressed and did their hair. Then we headed to get me coffee and want to McDonalds for breakfast. The girls ate hash browns and chocolate milk and then played for at least 45mins while I sat and drank coffee and read a magazine and watched them. Afterwards we head to Great Clips and we all got our hair trimmed. Novalee only got a trim. Trinity got 3 inches cut off, It looks really good though! Much healthier and bouncy and her curls are back. :) I really love her hair at this length and I think I may keep it at that length for now on. I only got a inch cut off on mine. Man I wish my hair would grow faster, I'm getting so annoyed with the two colors that I have almost dyed it black again a few times already. Argh. The only reason I haven't is because Trinity wants Mommy to have blonde hair like hers. lol. :) Anyways, I'm going to get eat lunch while my freebie is uploading and I'll bbl to post it.

Oh, I didnt realize that my blog was set to let only people with blogs leave comments SO I changed the settings and now anyone should be able to leave me comments, so please if you have any probs let me know. :)

Oh has anyone tried the new beta blogger?

Saturday, December 16, 2006

Man, I've been so bad about posting here.

Man, I've been so bad about posting here. I've been really busy. The girls had their holiday programs. I've been getting and making christmas presents. Wrapping them, etc. Cleaning. And soon I have to start packing too. Ugh. By the time we get back from AZ I'm going to be SUPER tired. lol. We leave on Friday after the girls get out of school. Then the saturday after we are planing to go to Santa's Theme Park. It will prolly be busy since it's the day before Christmas Eve but my kiddos really wanna go. We are going with my sister and her kids and maybe a few other family members so it should be pretty fun. Today was a good day. I woke up grumpy and with my back hurting but my kids turned the day around for me. After I exercised and went shopping and came home, Novalee napped while Trinity helped wrapped presents and helped put to together little presents for her friends at school. It was so cute and she was so happy do it. Of course she did make herself a little goodie too. LOL :)

Wanna see pics from there holidays programs? Go HERE for Trinity's and HERE for Novalee's. I made little Slide Shows since I took so many pictures. Some of the picture look weird but that was the first time I really used my camera. Plus a bunch of other people were taking pictures too and making everything brighter so I had to fix alot of them too.

So I'm slowly but surely playing catch up. lol I think while I'm in AZ I'll use some time to do more layouts with Quick Pages. :) This is Trinity when she was one. I was watching videos of her today when she was little and I started to cry. I miss those stages so much. I mean don't get me wrong I love the one she is in now but I also miss my little baby. Where did she go? They grow up too fast.







Ok I'm off to leave comments. I've been really bad at that the last month. I'm sorry! But Thanks for leaving me messages. It means alot. :)

Monday, December 11, 2006

New Toy and Freebie

I'm sorry that I havent been around lately. :( It's been so busy here. Christmas shopping, parties, the normal stuff. It just all adds up to ALOT around this time of year. Trinity is feeling MUCH better. She is still on meds but is no longer in pain. I'm also doing much better. I'm still coughing some but I'm feeling a heck of alot better all around. :)

On another note, my hubby told me to go buy a new camera and I did! I bought the Canon PowerShot Pro Series S3 IS 6MP with 12x Image Stabilized Zoom. It looks VERY cool. Now I just gotta figure everything out. lol But I'm sure that I will get much better pictures then I was getting before. I'll have to post some after I play. This camera is supposed to be the closest dig camera you can get to a digital SLR. I'm sure in a few years I'll want a SLR when I know more about photography but until then I'm learning.

Welps, I gotta go eat lunch n play with my new toy! BBL hopefully to leave comments n snag goodies.


My Newest Layout - Cherish Your Happy Moments
This is My hubby Barney and my daughter Trinity when she was One years old. I love how it came out. :)



Today's Freebie is Marble Overlays.

Download Marble Overlays Vol. One Part 1
Download Marble Overlays Vol. One Part 2

Saturday, December 09, 2006

Happy Saturday!

Good Evening. :) It's been a long day. I woke up at 6:30am. The girls were already up so we all got ready to go to the gym. Daddy slept in. I took Turbo kickboxing again. I love that class! :) It uses SO MANY muscles and your constantly working out your core too! Makes ya sweat good. lol. After we headed back home and did the norm. Daddy was up by then too. Trinity spent alot of time playing video games. Mommy finally had to step in and tell Daddy to make her stop unless she was playing her vsmile games. Then I took a nap while my Novalee napped. That was about a hour ago. Since then I helped the girls set up a little people village. Very cute. They are in their room right now playing with it. Mommy had to leave because she kept getting in their way. lol Silly girls.

Oh yes, Pictures of our gingerbread house! I have been forgetting! The girls had a blast making it. We had a disaster happen while making it though. The roof fell off!!! Oppps! It's ok Mommy fixed and as you can see it turned out great.




Here is the Freebie from me today.
It's a Halloween Kit. But I'm sure you can see that. lol
I really love how this kit came out.

Kit Contents -
13 Papers
3 Bows
3 Fibers
3 Brads
3 Buttons
3 Eyelets
1 Folded Ribbon
3 Frames
1 Knotted Ribbon
3 PaperClips
1 Photo Mat
5 Ribbons
3 Rick Rack
5 Tags
1 Slide
3 Staples
1 Torn Paper
1 Witches Hat
1 Spider
1 Pumpkin
1 Gravestone
1 Jack O'Latern
1 Ghost
1 Bat
1 Cat

Remember to leave a comment if you snag it! Thank you! :)

Download Happy Haunting Part 1
Download Happy Haunting Part 2
Download Happy Haunting Part 3

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Quick Post

I got woken up at 3am this morning to Trinity (my 4 yr old) crying. I went into her room and she told me her ear hurt. :( I gave her some tylenol which helped for a little while and sent her back to bed. I got up at 6:30am and found her on the cough laying down holding her ear. So I got her dressed and made her eat breakfast, then I showered and got dressed, and then I got Novalee up and ready. We got into the car and headed to the doctor. The doc said Trinity definitely has a ear infection and gave me a prescription for antibiotics and ear drops for pain. So we had to go get those of course. But now we are home and all pretty tired. So I'm off to eat lunch and rest with my girls before their naps. I hope you guys all got better sleep then I did. lol


I made a Layout using my new template I made yesterday. I love how both turned out. :) I used a picture of me and Trinity. I hope you guys enjoy using my template as much as I did!







Download Scrap Layout Template No. 2

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

Long Day!

I had a very busy and long day today or at least it seemed that way. lol I got up, got the girls and myself ready, took them to school, and then stopped to get coffee. After I headed home and played online for about a hour or so then headed back to the grocery store to have them remake my coffee because it tasted weird. Right after I headed to the doc. She said it didn't look like I had anything too bad but is checking for strep throat since Trinity gets A-typical strep alot. She also gave me antibotics and cough meds and told me to go buy cough drops and musinex(sp?). So I headed to the store again and droped off my prescription and got other stuff too. Once my prescriptions were ready I had to go straight to the girls school to get them. Then we headed home. The girls napped while I ate lunch and watched gilmore girls. Once they got up we all got ready to make the gingerbread house. We finished it and I took ALOT of pics. I'm kinda annoyed with my camera tho. I'm having to fix ALOT of them in PS. Grrrr. I want Santa Clause to bring me a very neat expensive camera. lol I was looking at the lumix. Anyone have any recomendations? There are so many out there that it is hard to decide but I know I need one with a big lens so my pics get more light. Anyways, I'm off to eat Dinner. Hope you guys have a relaxing day. ;)




Today's Digi Scrap Freebie is is Christmas Alpha. :) Hope you guys like it!


Download Happy Holidays Alpha

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

Good Afternoon

Hey Everyone. Been a busy morning. I did have a little time to play though. :) I made two new Layouts using my freebie for today. I really like how they came out. I need to do a few more for Halloween. We took a TON of pictures of all those cuties.

This morning I was dragging big time. I didn't wake the girls up and let them sleep in some. Big mistake. It just stressed me out because then I had to rush and hurry to do all the morning stuff. After I dropped Trinity off at school, me and Novalee went to the gym. Since I'm still feeling under the weather I only did a 40 min workout. It got real hard around 25 mins into it. I think I should prolly go see the doc. My throat is still hurting and I'm still coughing. It's been a week and a half so at least 10 days. Trinity and Novalee were both sick too. Novalee is getting over whatever she had but Trinity isn't doing so hot. She is feeling alot like Mommy is. :( Poor kid. I hate it when they are sick. Anyways, I need to go eat lunch. Have a great day everyone! :)



Today's Digi Scrap Freebie is a Layout Template. I'm not very good at these yet but I figure you gotta make em to get better. I hope someone will like it anyways. lol. The zip file has both psd and psp files. :) Any feedback is welcome. Enjoy!
Download Layout Template One





My Examples. :)








Monday, December 04, 2006

Some News

Ok So I have decided to stop selling my digi-scrap designs and start doing it all for free again. Yup. I just felt like I didn't have enough time to dedicate to selling with my two lil ones around here. So that means I will be giving them away for free now and at SDS again. :)

Here is my first pressy for you all. :) Enjoy! Come back soon for the next one, prolly tomo. Be sure to leave me a comment so I know people are enjoying my freebies. :)

Click HERE to Download.