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This is me on 1/5/00 at 370 pounds & gaining.


And this is me now. :) (180)

I have never been like everyone else. For a lot of kids being fat is something they never have to think about. Something they never have to worry about, and lucky them. But for me, that was VERY different. I thought about it every day of my life, what I ate and didn't eat since I was 10 years old. I started gaining weight rapidly. I ate less then everyone around me but I was the one gaining weight on a daily basis and getting bigger. I had people telling me to eat less and exercise more. Eat less when I was eating less then all the other kids already?

I'm surprised I didn't end up with a eating disorder too. As the years went by the weight went up and up. When I graduated from school I was already 270 and a year later when I married my hubby I was up to 310. Can you imagine being that big? Try picking up a 50 pound bag of dog food and walk around for a hour. See how tired you get from just 50 more pounds. Of course with my weight going up so quick, my health went downhill. I was going to the Dr every week for things. I couldn't paint my toes nails much less even see my toes. I would get out of breath walking from the car which was parked in the closing parking spot to the Store entrance. My ankles were so swollen they looked like balloons. My Dr finally discovered that I had low thyroid. Started me on meds which helped me not gain weight so fast but about nothing else....

After my hubby graduated we moved to San Diego for his job. Imagine being 350 pounds now and living in a city where everyone is obsessed with looks. I'd go out in public and hear comments n snickers n laughing. After a while I couldn't take it and would only leave my home when absolutely needed. I was a prisoner in my own home. Now I just moved to CA so of course I was extremely homesick as ALL of my family lived in AZ and they were my support. My hubby was busy with his new job n well not very interested in me anymore, n who can blame him? I had such bad sleep apnea that I would stop breathing 113 times in 1 hour. I was dying and I was invisible to everyone. This is were the thought of killing myself came in. I could no longer handle being so big that I was not really living at all. Well, one day I was online and just happened upon a website that saved my life in every way possible. WLS. Weight Loss Surgery. And NO, It's not a "EASY WAY OUT". It was either WLS or die a slow death. What would you choose? I choose WLS. I choose life. I'd either die on the table or come out in a better situation. Not much really to lose. I went into surgery weighing 371 or more.

Well It worked. One and half years later and ALOT of exercise, I was 205 pounds lighter. I weighed 165 and I was happy and healthy and most important I was living life again. All my medical problems were gone. WLS saved me. Saved my life and made my kids possible! Yup, 2 years later I had my first child and 4 years later my second. I gained some baby weight and I was at 218 before starting my exercise and diet routine. WLS was just a tool for me and that's all. It gave me the chance to have a normal life. It doesn't mean that I won't gain weight back, I know, because well I did. I gained a total of 50 pounds between my two kids. But my kids are worth it and so I am. So here I am again WORKING to get weight off. Weight loss is not easy for me. It never will be. I was always have to work harder then everyone else around me with normal thyroids. But I'm ok with that. If I didn't go through everything that I have gone though then I wouldn't be me and I wouldn't have my kids who are my life. They are a big part of why I am trying to lose weight again, So I can around longer for them.

My Current stats & Goals -
SW - 218.9
CW - 193.4
GW1 - 199
 GW2 - 189
 GW3 - 179
 GW4 - 165
GW5 - 150

I feel 160/150 is a good weight for me, even with me being 5'3 since I have large heavy bones from being so overweight at a young age. I was 165 before getting preggo n a size 12. I felt VERY comfortable at that weight. I'm doing pretty well with my eating and exercise, now it's just time for the hard part - sticking to it!

If you have any comments or questions about my story, feel free to contact me. :)

jamie@jamies-designs.com
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Monday, May 29, 2006

My Sweet Baby! :) This is a LO made from a Quick page by me!

posted by Jamie at 4:35 PM 0 comments

Friday, May 26, 2006

My Newest Kit - Summer Breeze

My Newest Kit - Summer Breeze. Although I am already working on yet another one! This is my newest kit. Summer Breeze. Want this kit? Go to http://www.scrap-me-silly.com and then click on kits. :) Enjoy!

posted by Jamie at 6:08 PM 0 comments

Saturday, May 13, 2006

Moments LO Share. :)

I made this for a PSE class I'm taking. :) Everything on the page I made. Great Class, teaching me alot about PSE4 tools.

It reads "These sweet moments come and go so quickly. My babies are growing fast and I can hardly believe how big and how beautiful they are. They are my little girls now, so sweet, so loving and so innocent. Oh I wish these moments could last a lifetime. We bought these dresses at Mervyn's earlier that day to have their pictures taken in later but they couldn't wait that long! They loved them and wanted to wear them right away to show them off. So we let them and they looked so cute that I had to take pictures of them in their new outfits!Trinity and Novalee were so happy that they posed for me and in pictures with me! It was so cute. Trinity was walking around twirling around in circles trying to make her dress spin around. Novalee just kept smiling and laughing.I love small moments like this. It makes me stop and realize how truly blessed I am. I am lucky often to be the mother of these two precious girls."



Eeeeek, Its been too long since I have posted here! I keep forgettin!

posted by Jamie at 1:54 PM 0 comments

Saturday, May 06, 2006

Ugggh and another kit up!

My back and neck have been causing me alot of pain so my creative-ness or whatever you wanna call it has gone out the window which is why I haven't posted here in quite a while. Today I feel dizzy, weak, and light headed. No fun!

I am however working on a another kit as well as learning PS4 ALOT more. Anyways, Time for Lunch.

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Edit 5:09pm

I finally got my first kit resized, etc etc. Here are the previews -

Feelin Shy Kit by Jamie (JamiesDesigns)
All images are 300dpi.
Elements are png.
All papers are 12X12 and jpg.
Kit is 54 MB total
Go to http://www.scrap-me-silly.com/ & click on Kits
under the All The Time Freebies section on the right.



posted by Jamie at 1:29 PM 0 comments

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Don't Settle

This cute guy is my hubby Barney. This is the first LO I have done of just him. I really need to take more pictures of him and make more LO's of him. I love the way this one has turned out. Ain't he a cutie? :) The kit I used is called Mint Mocha by Sophia Davies. I LOVE this kit! I am already working on another layout using it. Thanks Sophia!

Well, I made the mistake on Friday and let the "sub" Chiro adjust me while my normal Chiro was on vacation. BIG MISTAKE. Now my back is hurting in places it wasn't before! I think I'm gonna be in pain for the rest of my life. Being as overweight as I was really did a number on my already messed up back. :( Anyways, Enough of me complaining. I'm gonna go eat my dinner and watch my shows. :)

posted by Jamie at 8:09 PM 1 comments