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This is me on 1/5/00 at 370 pounds & gaining.


And this is me now. :) (180)

I have never been like everyone else. For a lot of kids being fat is something they never have to think about. Something they never have to worry about, and lucky them. But for me, that was VERY different. I thought about it every day of my life, what I ate and didn't eat since I was 10 years old. I started gaining weight rapidly. I ate less then everyone around me but I was the one gaining weight on a daily basis and getting bigger. I had people telling me to eat less and exercise more. Eat less when I was eating less then all the other kids already?

I'm surprised I didn't end up with a eating disorder too. As the years went by the weight went up and up. When I graduated from school I was already 270 and a year later when I married my hubby I was up to 310. Can you imagine being that big? Try picking up a 50 pound bag of dog food and walk around for a hour. See how tired you get from just 50 more pounds. Of course with my weight going up so quick, my health went downhill. I was going to the Dr every week for things. I couldn't paint my toes nails much less even see my toes. I would get out of breath walking from the car which was parked in the closing parking spot to the Store entrance. My ankles were so swollen they looked like balloons. My Dr finally discovered that I had low thyroid. Started me on meds which helped me not gain weight so fast but about nothing else....

After my hubby graduated we moved to San Diego for his job. Imagine being 350 pounds now and living in a city where everyone is obsessed with looks. I'd go out in public and hear comments n snickers n laughing. After a while I couldn't take it and would only leave my home when absolutely needed. I was a prisoner in my own home. Now I just moved to CA so of course I was extremely homesick as ALL of my family lived in AZ and they were my support. My hubby was busy with his new job n well not very interested in me anymore, n who can blame him? I had such bad sleep apnea that I would stop breathing 113 times in 1 hour. I was dying and I was invisible to everyone. This is were the thought of killing myself came in. I could no longer handle being so big that I was not really living at all. Well, one day I was online and just happened upon a website that saved my life in every way possible. WLS. Weight Loss Surgery. And NO, It's not a "EASY WAY OUT". It was either WLS or die a slow death. What would you choose? I choose WLS. I choose life. I'd either die on the table or come out in a better situation. Not much really to lose. I went into surgery weighing 371 or more.

Well It worked. One and half years later and ALOT of exercise, I was 205 pounds lighter. I weighed 165 and I was happy and healthy and most important I was living life again. All my medical problems were gone. WLS saved me. Saved my life and made my kids possible! Yup, 2 years later I had my first child and 4 years later my second. I gained some baby weight and I was at 218 before starting my exercise and diet routine. WLS was just a tool for me and that's all. It gave me the chance to have a normal life. It doesn't mean that I won't gain weight back, I know, because well I did. I gained a total of 50 pounds between my two kids. But my kids are worth it and so I am. So here I am again WORKING to get weight off. Weight loss is not easy for me. It never will be. I was always have to work harder then everyone else around me with normal thyroids. But I'm ok with that. If I didn't go through everything that I have gone though then I wouldn't be me and I wouldn't have my kids who are my life. They are a big part of why I am trying to lose weight again, So I can around longer for them.

My Current stats & Goals -
SW - 218.9
CW - 193.4
GW1 - 199
GW2 - 189
GW3 - 179
GW4 - 165
GW5 - 150

I feel 160/150 is a good weight for me, even with me being 5'3 since I have large heavy bones from being so overweight at a young age. I was 165 before getting preggo n a size 12. I felt VERY comfortable at that weight. I'm doing pretty well with my eating and exercise, now it's just time for the hard part - sticking to it!

If you have any comments or questions about my story, feel free to contact me. :)

jamie@jamies-designs.com









































Sunday, April 30, 2006

Updated My Mellow Kit

Well After talking to a friend of mine she gave me a few tips about kits. So I went back and changed dpi, sizes, etc etc. All papers are now 12X12 and jpg. I fixed the stones with the words in the kit, etc etc. There was alot to change. Now I'm working on updating my Feelin shy kit before startin the next one. :) Anyways if you would like my updated verison of this kit the info is below..... Enjoy!
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Mellow Kit by Jamie (JamiesDesigns)
All images are 300dpi. Elements are png.
All papers are 12X12 and jpg.
Kit is 108.85 MB total
Go to http://www.scrap-me-silly.com/ & click on Kits under the All The Time Freebies section on the right.

Friday, April 28, 2006

I'm on a roll. :)


I'm really glad I started a scrap group a while back that I'm in charge of. We run alot of challenges and it really helps to whip up some differant and interesting Layouts. Both of these layouts were made because of challenges. The pink mother one was a Quick page challenge and the yellow one was two differant challenges I combind into one. A tutorial challenge to make torn paper, which btw is VERY easy, And a About Me challenge. :) Go to http://www.cottagearts.net/tutorial_torn_edge_adobe_pse.html fo the torn paper tutorial.

Welps, I gotta go get my kids ready for school. BBL I think. lol My hubby and I are also taking them see the wiggles today at 3pm so I may not get time to get back here.

Thursday, April 27, 2006

Weakest Moment


You Don't realize how Strong a person really is until you see them at their weakest moment.

It reads - Going from 370 pounds to 170 pounds is a experience I will never forget. Losing 200 pounds has changed and altered my life in every way possible. Not only did I get my life back, I was able to have my children who mean EVERYTHING to me. Every day I am reminded in one way or another what I have been through. It wasn't easy but having WLS has worth it because I'm worth it and so are my beautiful children. I'm finally getting the chance normal people get, to live a long, happy, healthy life.

Credits - mypurplebutterfly_miniscraps By Melany Violette @ Simply Clean Digi Scraps
Font/s - Salina/Respect/Tahoma
Program Used - Paint Shop Pro X

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Time goes by too fast


Time goes by too fast. :( My Trinity is getting so big. She was sitting in my lap today and I couldn't help but to hold her like a baby and cuddle her and she said hey I'm not a baby! I said you will always be my baby and she got upset n told me that no she was not a baby that she is a big girl. lol She is changing every day. One of these days I'm gonna look at her and she will be woman. I just hope I'm a good enough mom to help her become a kind, caring, strong woman that I have tried to be myself.

I did this layout today. It's amazing how much they change in 1 year. The elements and paper are by me from my mellow kit.

Monday, April 24, 2006

Good Morning

Good Morning I think. I woke this morn from my neck and back hurting I got up anyways and I was going to go to the gym. I got ready, started gettin the girls breakfast etc etc. When the girls woke up I took one look at Trinity and knew my plans must change. I took both her and sister to the doctor. They both have a eye infection. Trinity has pink eye and Novalee has conjunctivitis. :( And if that isn't bad enough they both have strep throat on top of that. So after that we go to the store and get their prescriptions and go home. I go to put food in our freezer and apparently somehow it was off all night. So I had to throw almost everything in the freezer away and clean the freezer top to bottom because we had popiscles in there. Yuck. Very sticky! Then once I'm finished with that I take the garbage out and come back in to found out I started my period. What fun. NOT! Ugh Today has been a very yucky day so far, and I hope you guys are having a better day then I am.Oh I also found out that my car has $4800 total damage on it. They ordered the parts and should get them tomo and at the latest on Friday and then once they have the part it will take 2 weeks to get my car back. bah!!! Ok enough of me complaing!

Here is a scrap page I did yesterday. This is my daughter Trinity dressed up in her Cinderella outfit. :)

It reads "My little girl is so big nowAll I can say is WOWWhere have the baby days gone Bottles and crying have turned to songI wont be in gloomFor Young beautys in bloomI can see in your eyes the women to beBut you’ll always stay little princess to me!"

Simply Sweet Kit By Sophia Davies @ digitalscrapbookpages.com
Program Used - Paint Shop Pro X
Fonts - AC3 Wildflower

Sunday, April 23, 2006

My New Digi Scrap Kit !



This is my new kit. :) I'm currently learning new scrap techniques so the kit is a bit big but I love the colors. My next kit will be made using PS CS2 or PS Elements so it may take longer since I'm still learning those programs. Anyways if you would like this kit go HERE. Click on Digital Scraps By Me, Then Digi Scrap Kits, and then Mellow. :) Papers are 8.5 X 11 and png. Elements are pspimage. In the next kit they will be either png or psd files.

Saturday, April 22, 2006

ugggh. Ouch!


Ugh. Ok Headaches are no fun. I have been going to bed with headaches and waking up with them. I have been having almost contstant headaches. Grrrr. I hate this. I haven't exercised since the accident either, but I don't care headache or not, Monday morning I am going to go to my kickbox class. Mhm I am. Although I may have to do the Stairs or exercise from home since I have yet another Chiro appointment on Monday at 10:30. Bahhh

Made this Layout today. It came out ok. Not as good as I hoped but oh well. This is Trinity. I can't believe how much time has passed so quick. My baby grew so fast into a beautiful sweet little girl. It makes me sad, before I know it she will be a teenager. Eeek!

The last couple of days I have been trying to play catch up on my scrapping. I have been using a scrap proggie with templates to be able to get more done to try n catch up. Its taking forever, the templates are not the best and I have to change them some but it works. :)

Friday, April 21, 2006

Good n bad news

I had another appointment with my chiropractor today. I had my normal adjustments and then after he showed me the x-rays of my neck. (That pic is not me but is a demo pic) So the good news is I don't have arthritis or anything else like that but he did find something which is the cause of my neck even before the accident, the accident just made it a lot worse. Anyways See where the arrows point to? Look really close and on the last bone in the neck you will see it has little flaps on it. well, that's normal, everyone has them but mine are different, they are longer then normal. Meaning that mine are longer so the gap underneath them is a good place for my nerves to get pinched. So lucky me, besides already having Scoliosis and curvature of the spine I have this. Ugh. No fun!

I also get to deal with the people's insurance company to hit us to try and see if I can get them to pay for all my extra visits and maybe even pain and suffering. We should be getting the info for that by Wednesday. Gah, accidents are stressful in so many ways.

So the good news is that now that we know this he can work on that area a lot more to try and get back under control with all my nerves.

Ok enough complaining, Time to ice my neck yet again.

Thursday, April 20, 2006

Hmmmm.

Ok This is just weird. My neck keeps going back n forth from feeling ok to really hurting me and causing me headaches. It almost has made me forgetful. I go to do something and then completely forget what I was going to do. Very Odd. I have my Chiro appt tomo at 8:30am. I hope the x-rays show that nothing is too messed up.

Yesterday I did like 13 or more tutorials for PS CS2. It was fun to learn what diferance tools and options did. I really am liking PSCS2 so far. In fact I have been thinking about taking some classes to get certified later. I plan on going back to school soon and I have been into graphics for years from korean dolls, tags, IM letter, Tubes and now digi scraping. I think this is something that would benefit me a lot. Give me those skills I need to support myself just in case and also help develop my skills in graphic designs.

Eeeek, Screamin kids! BBL.


**EDIT - 3:50pm**

This is a scrap page I just finished. I think it came out pretty well. I love the pictures and the colors. Almost everything on the layout comes from a kit called Simply Sweet by Sophia Davies. You can get this kit ----> HERE

I'm on her creative team and she is a great person and a talented designer. :)

Anyways, My kids just woke up from their naps so I gotta go. They wanna play a fish game I bought them.

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

O.o I like this!

Yay, I'm slowly but surely figuring this all out. I'm just trying to personalize it inbetween icing my neck and resting. lol I have been using xanga but I think I like the feel and look of blogger better. :-) Now I need to add some links. So if I know you or you are a scrapper, let's exchange! :-)

I got my tutorial CD yesterday for PS CS2. I can't wait to get started on everything! Anyways, I better go, my girls should be waking up soon.